I watched the light in your eyes die out,
And like many a twinkling star, the deepest reaches of space poured from your sockets,
I’d give my life to you for a smile, or a snuggle, or hell, for a curt nod of recognition.
No one sees me, anymore and it’s deafening here in this echo chamber that holds only my own breath,
Everyone views me as an object but who I truly am is lost amongst the cosmos,
I’m an interplanetary fuck up, just wishing it was easier to finally give up.
I’d count your breaths while you’re sleeping, to make sure you’d always come back to me,
And I’d caress your cheeks as I kissed you, letting my fingers play with the edges of your lips, tasting your teeth and tongue,
I’d give my entire life to you, I’d give you it all, and I’d never faulter or doubt my decision.
I’d swim seas for those eyes, deflated, and I’d move mountains to feel the corded muscle of your arms around my shoulders.
Maybe that’s the problem, I give my love to those who could never love me in the same capacity,
And it’s fucking killing me, everyone’s laughing now as I’m drowning here and flailing and unable to keep my head above water,
When all I want is to be your universe, to place deep space back into your head and make sure you dream of the outer reaches of existence with me.
But no one ever wants forever with someone who promises them every desire, no one ever wants forever with someone who would throw away everything for their well being,
No one ever wants forever, anymore.
No one ever wants forever with me.
But pay attention and heed these words,
Someone will want forever with you, once I’m no longer here, once I’m back in space, waiting for the world to burn out, waiting for you to pay attention.